I knew that I felt moved to write today as it has been a little while (life has been crazy). I was pondering what would be the best subject as many things were swirling around my head and then all the sudden it came to me, "Taking the reigns from God."
Now, I don't know about you but I feel like this is a tight walk of life of when to sit back and wait on the Lord and when to take action. I know the Lord is always working in the lives of those who know him and call on him, but isn't it when life is overwhelming or not going the way we had planned that we lose sight of this?
I think its easy in today's world to want to just fix our lives. Google is a blessing and a curse. We can find a solution to any ailment we have but we can also become neurotic, lose sleep, and convince ourself we are going to die. Not the best position to be in if you ask me.
Over the past few weeks, my community group ladies at church have been reading a Jen Wilkin book called "None like Him." It's premise is to discuss 10 ways that God is different.
I confess that by trying to take the reigns I often subconsciously put God in a box over there while I tend to my idols over here. But in reality, God knows my whole heart and all the things I've been worshipping besides him. It could be worshipping the scale and weight loss or my idol of control over my son's behavior. Things can quickly become idols that are good things when they become ultimate things in our lives.
Jen Wilkin says that "I am no expert on God, only God is. And that he is the expert on us." If God is the expert, than it would make sense for us to let him lead our ships? No? But don't we live to sail in the direction and course we've set for ourselves and only then later ask for prayer when it's not going as planned? What if we were to open up the map of our lives to God and pray for where God would have us sail next?
This analogy is true for Daniel and I with our heart for adoption. We feel a calling from God to adopt but the sea of our life has been murky and overwhelming lately. Daniels been slammed at work and I've been busy caring for Brayden and his specialist appointments like physical therapy.
We feel like God has used people in our life and just wisdom from the Lord to take a break from the process of adopting, at least for a few months. It's not that we are giving up or that it won't happen, but we just know what we can handle and right now we are at our max.
We are deciding to give God the reigns of adoption and to listen for the right timing to finish the paperwork and complete the home study. It's Gods plan for us, he knows the perfect timing for our lives. We don't, he does.
Lord, I pray that we can come to you with open hands and opens minds during this busy season of life and let you sail our ships through the ever changing sea of life.
That is my prayer for you too, friend. God Bless You.