Singing this song about God’s goodness this week has been so uplifting to a weary soul both in sleep and stress.
As the week unraveled it was just what the enemy hoped would be our families undoing - middle of the night ER visits, being turned away from preschool for my boy because they refused to make an accomodation for him, power going out in the height of humidity and 90 degree heat.
Most the time we just roll with the punches and continue to thank God but I know each of those hard things this week brought bigger loads to our backs than we thought we could bear. And we couldn't! But GOD can. God knew all this would happen with family diagnosis, losing care for my son while I regain my health, and even the comfort of our home “working” with power. Ya, and then there’s lack of sleep. That doesn’t help anyone for sure.
I have cried many tears this week, some understandably others just out of exhaustion, illness, and the enemy wanting me to feel defeat. We constantly remind ourselves who we are in Christ - we are not a product of our body or the work we do and as Priscilla Shirer reminds believers in Fervent: A Woman's Battle Plan to Serious, Specific and Strategic Prayer -
“If I were your enemy, "I’d devalue your strength and magnify your insecurities until they dominate how you see yourself, disabling and disarming you from fighting back, from being free, from being who God has created you to be. I’d work hard to ensure that you never realize what God has given you so you’ll doubt the power of God within you.”
So when reading this, my flesh wants to be so angry and hurt from preschool not making an accommodation for my son with special needs, but at the end of the day I did all I could to fight for him and I will continue to. And I will let God fight for us too. I don’t have a plan yet for his preschool, but I know God does.
My mom said she would teach him the christian curriculum if that is the way this year would go and so I will pray and ask God for guidance.
I have confidence in Christ that HIS plan is best. As I sit hear weary eyed straining to keep them open, I thank God for his provision in our lives and the truth that I can rest my mind on. His truth that is not based on FEELINGS but yet on the the Creator who created us to worship him and to share that love with others.
We PRAISE him regardless of how we feel and ask for courage and discernment, where we are weak God is strong.
2 Chronicles 20:15-17.
15 He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the Lord says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s. 16 Tomorrow march down against them. They will be climbing up by the Pass of Ziz, and you will find them at the end of the gorge in the Desert of Jeruel. 17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”
That was written at the end of August and things got away from me to hit publish. So thankful to look back and see the work God has done in our lives in just a month. Be still my heart!